Here I'm hoping I'll write. I'm planning on writing some light texts and reflections of my day to day, but maybe I'll do some heavier texts too. We'll see :D
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Evening Reflections (daily entries for now)
2025.09.26 --- I am exausted but the dinner went well. I'm so sleepy It's a struggle to write even a word... but I'm happy nonetheless! Made mutabal, some goat cheese and maple syrup pastries and pumpkin and mushroom risotto. Wanted to be a more autumn themed dinner. I think it was indeed nice. Really hope my boyfriends? mother and step-father enjoyed it.
2025.09.25 --- Hey again... Today was a long day, a bit messy in terms of emotions. Wrote a bit about my likes and dislikes to try to find myself once again. My sense of self feels a bit lost with all the doomscrolling, haven't listened to music by myself and watching almost no films nor read, painting and drawing and making music has been a chore in a way, and I certainly have been struggling to be loving and present, so it was a nice way to ground myself. I'll reorganize it in areas/things/vibes one day, but for now here it is (if you want to read it of course!):
my likes: nature in most of it's forms; artistic and creative outlets; authenticity; contrast; harmony; comfy blankets; the sensation of a slight breeze on a warm day; being bathed in sun's light; the sound of tree's leaves twirling with the wind; the sound of the waves crashing into rock formations; petting a chinchilla or a bunny or even a cockatiel or a snake; care and be cared for; the deep red color of both blood and pommegranate seeds; intricate glassware; delicate swords; lace and metal together; knowing I'm important in someone's life; daydreaming; astrology and tarot as it's intriguing how it was created and undertood; the look of leather;the look of rope; messy makeuo; messy
I'm still going to write the rest, just not today... I'm too tired at the moment, I'll see you tomorrow*
2025.09.24 --- Hey there, wherever you are. I'm wondering if I'll be able to actually create a rhythm that aligns we me, that motivates me to keep going, some interest appearing hopefully... I don't feel I have any passions at the moment, nothing sparks my interest to the point of obsession, and that certainly worries me. I'm annoyed most of the time with the most vapid things... that also worries me. I don't want to be a shell of myself, but I'm not sure about what I can do... I mean, I do know, but putting it in practice is hard when I value myself enough, and when it's even hard to value anything at all. The day was okay, I'm happy because I did pumpkin risotto, though I neede to add mushrooms, since I didn't roast enough pumpkin. I think I'll cut the pumpkin in slightly smaller bits, since it gives extra flavour. Why do I feel so uninspired at night? Maybe it isn't a constant and I'm just in a bad day. If anyone is reading this... no one is, and I feel free knowing that. It's like being naked in a desert beach in a way I suppose? Never done that, but seems like similar vibes. Perhaps one day I'll try it. I'm going to see if I finally make a moodboard for this fall, I'll see you tomorrow*
2025.09.23 --- Hello again... today I was hoping I'd get more stuff done, but ended up losing myself in the "declutter clothes" part... I do have too many clothes (I mean if isn't a lot lot but enough to be overwhelming) and most of them I don't really love them, though I've learned to making them work for me. It's hard to let something go that you've tried to make it work time and time again... even if you know it isn't the best for you,that actually aligns with who you are... I'll have to make a wardrobe purge and I'm afraid I'll lose something I'll want to have in the future, but letting it go would be for the best. I'm tired of feeling like I have nothing to wear when I have an overly full wardrobe, and I need to give space to have room for stuff that I actually really enjoy. I also did a tarot pull today, was planning to do a card a day but something was telling me to see 2 more. So, in order, the Moon reversed, the Page of Pentacles and the Strenght. It was an interesting pull, calling me out on being confused and unfocused and not trusting myself, but also showing bme there's possibility for growth. I'm really enjoying this process, it's giving me space to learn about myself (form another point of view in a way) and about tarot. Hopefully I'll keep that rhythm. Besides that, I made some samples to try out for friday's dinner. My boyfriends' parents are coming here for the first time to dinne with us, so I (we) want to make it special in some way. They were ok, they got overcooked, but they had a nice taste and I already know what design I'll be focusing on. I'll see if I can post pics here soon, it would be fun!! I'll see you tomorrow*
2025.09.22 --- happy fall equidox everyone! I decided I want to start writing here as soon as possible. Decided to start today :) Today was and wasn't great. I did do a lot of stuff but not everything I wanted to do. I did end up doing other stuff that needed to be done, so it's fine. I do need to leave the house more. I feel trapped but it's something I'm doing to myself. Some highligths from today: restarted morning pages, did a plan for focusing on getting my shit together, washed the sofa covers, planned a equinox picnic that ended up not happening, removed the carpet from the living room, went with Chris to Burger King (BOO!!!), went to the river side to do a nocturnal walk, catched some flowers - I just took a branch, and I was surprised by a green sleeping grasshopper, it was so neat... and I did a tarot spread to see how this next season. Now I'm so sleepy, I almost fell asleep while writing this numerous times. It is what is. I'll see you tomorrow ..